But Tomoko was shaking her head - shaking it so fervently as though by doing it she'll be able to block out the sound of his voice. He didn't need to say it. He shouldn't say it. Because if he didn't, then it would be easier to pretend that she was just saying goodbye to a dear friend, and maybe it wouldn't hurt too much, and maybe it would be easier to move on and forget about this, forget about them, forget about him. He shouldn't say it because that would be beyond cruel, knowing that he loved her, yet he didn't love her enough to stay.
Was he only saying it because he thought she would like to hear it? "D-Don't! I don't--" want to hear it. Furiously, she wiped at her cheeks with her palms. "P-Please don't--" make this any worse.
She shouldn't have asked. She shouldn't have asked and maybe then they'd be able to eat and talk and laugh and when he brings her home later that night she could probably kiss him on the cheek and say goodnight to him and dream. Then maybe she would have that to treasure once she found out he was gone.
Instead she had this, memories where tears filled her lungs and air sat on her stomach like sawdust and it was hard to see because her eyes stung. "Please don't."
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Was he only saying it because he thought she would like to hear it? "D-Don't! I don't--" want to hear it. Furiously, she wiped at her cheeks with her palms. "P-Please don't--" make this any worse.
She shouldn't have asked. She shouldn't have asked and maybe then they'd be able to eat and talk and laugh and when he brings her home later that night she could probably kiss him on the cheek and say goodnight to him and dream. Then maybe she would have that to treasure once she found out he was gone.
Instead she had this, memories where tears filled her lungs and air sat on her stomach like sawdust and it was hard to see because her eyes stung. "Please don't."